There is just doesn’t ever seem to be enough of it.
I have re-written this post several times. I cant seem to get into the groove so I will just go into what’s been going on in the last several days.
I find myself being pulled in different directions. There was just big round of layoffs at work and the shift of responsibilities has been causing me a great deal of stress. Change can always be stressful but I have become relatively used to these kinds of changes.
I have become used to a schedule that allows me to focus the majority of my outside time on Tai Chi. I got into a routine, now I am looking at a potential routine change. One that I am trying to figure out if I want to allow.
My work forces a lot of context switching. I switch from one workflow to another and try to make sure that the artists on my team are able to work as effectively as they can. This requires me to put myself in their shoes and see how they work so I can attempt to predict ways of making things easier for them in the future.
Busy days can be nuts, I sometimes have to go through 5 or 6 people solving their issues and juggling the other tasks I have on my plate. If one artist is stuck, that is my first priority.
It can be a really fun job, but it also has the tendency to wear me out pretty early in the week if the department is really pushing hard.
I guess what I am trying to say is, now I feel am going to have to do even more and I am trying to figure out if I have it in me.
The last several days, I have been tired. Profoundly tired and it has nothing to do with my physical body. It all has to do with the amount of attention and focus I have been devoting to the different aspects of my life. I had achieved a nice balance, a maintainable one between work and life. It was a balance that was so finely tuned that it was easy to tip from one side to the other. Right in that perfect sweet spot.
Last week, essentially a ton of bricks dropped on to the work side of the scale.
I don’t really have a resolution yet. This week I have to find new boundaries and make sure that goes well with the rest of the schedule.
Onward and upward. Wish me luck.
Put this on in the background. Great lecture on time management.
The Restless Raven 